My dearest Aarohan,
I couldn’t even realise how soon, how fast these days past. Today, it is exactly 3 years 1 month 12 days, that I have been sharing this life with you. Trust me, this time spent with you, was the best time of my life, since my birth.
The little things you did for me, meant a lot. I loved the way you cooked for me, whenever I was unwell and fed me with your hands. Specially the khitchdi that you cooked when I was unwell. It tasted so good. 😉
I can’t tell you, there are countless such moments, when you touched my soul.
Today, I am feeling miserable. The persitent fear and pain of leaving you behind is haunting me. I have just a week or so to live. And then, an irreversable journey, when I will be forced to leave you behind. I will be forced to take this journey to infinity.
I can’t stop my tears baby. I can’t!!
All these years, cooking for you, cleaning our home, preapring bed, washing your clothes, preparing French toast for you in breakfast and massaging warm oil under your feet, felt awesome.
I will miss all this in my next birth, if there would be any. ;(
I loved you always. But now, when I am leaving this sweet little world of ours “forever”, I love you more! A desperate desire to live with you is piercing my soul. I want to stay with you Aarohan. I really want to!
Love means so much I never knew. I always loved to be in a relationship with you, but I never knew how blissful it would be to be your wife.
I want to share so much, I want to talk so much. But, there is such less time. Death is inching closer with every ticking of the clock. I can see it coming.
Tomorrow, when I will leave you behind, don’t search me in bed, just hug my pillow tight. I am leaving the fragrence and warmth of my body in it.
I can’t even say, “will see you soon.” But, I will miss your arms, your kisses, your caresses and your every touch.
You have touched my life Aarohan..you have touched my soul.
I am happy about one thing, that I am your better half.
Never leave my memories behind, but don’t forget to move on in life either.
Take care of yourself honey.
Loads of love, hugs and kisses.